I’m obsessed with having thin arms.

I’ve been a little unhealthy lately, mostly in terms of my diet. My self-esteem fluctuates pretty wildly. I place too much of my happiness on how my body looks. The only good reason to that is that I’m in control of my diet, but sometimes that can backfire with bad eating habits. I think there’s a piece in everyone that can get a little self-destructive, either intentionally or unintentionally.

I mean, I don’t ever mean to hurt myself. Sometimes I can get so distracted by a meaningless goal like losing weight that I can get carried away. I know it’s unhealthy of me. In fact, someone told me that people with similar problems think that being thin will solve all of their problems. I don’t want to admit it, but that’s how I essentially feel with dieting.

Sometimes I feel stupid. I feel so superficial being concerned about something like my weight. I know it’s an issue that goes beyond my physical appearance.

I’m just trying to get better.